Two quotes I found that are very relevant to this blog and to which I must apply myself.

C.S. Lewis
You are never too old to set another goal or to dream a new dream.

Joseph Campbell
We must be willing to let go of the life we planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us.

I have been thinking a lot about my future for the possibly few years that I may have remaining before I pass on. I am 73 soon to be 74 on November 3rd 2023. I just recently lost my love, my life, my wife Deborah on the 15th of March 2023, to the disease they call "Interstitial Lung Disease". We were together for 40 years; it's very hard getting past her loss and I struggle every day to find the will to keep going without her. We had so many dreams, so many plans most of which never materialized but a few did and for those I am very thankful.

So where do I go from here? How do I find new meaning and direction for my life? I do not know for sure but one thing is for certain; if I don't find a way out of this very dark place I find myself in I will just continue to deteriorate physically and mentally. I have never been one to quit when I apply myself to something so I must find the courage to carry on and be happy again but the hill I must climb is so vast!

OK enough of the darkness; lets explore the light that I can see very dimly at the end of this dark tunnel I find myself in. I have been exploring some of Edgar Cayce's readings and believe I know the way to find some purpose and direction to strive for. I must forgive myself first and foremost for all the times I was mean to her; that I was not listening to her wishes and wants; the times I made her feel unloved with my bad actions and words. I am so very sorry baby! I called her baby and she mostly called me honey or babe!

So my journey continues; wish me luck and peace of mind on my endeavors.